so last sunday i went to 3 different churches. it was a little overwhelming and i kept thinking to myself, "does this mean that i get to sleep in for the next two weeks?" (just a little joke for all those concerned)
the first church that i went to was a methodist church in the woodlands. i wasn't really feeling that one. lot's of people, lots of hype, lots of things that make me uncomfortable...until the very last five minutes. i really enjoyed the last five minutes. the guy preaching performed this song that he wrote and he was pretty much amazing. he sounded just like johnny cash. the song led me to wonder how great that church would be if they fit johnny cash songs into their sermons every week.
church numero dos is a church that i have been going to since my sophomore year of college. i wasn't a regular attender, but when i was home on the weekends i would go with my family. i am not going to critique this church, but i will just leave it at...i don't fit there. i am so envious of the relationships that my sister has from there, and am glad that i have friends there that are so amazing, but again...i don't fit.
church number three is the reason for writing this little blurb. i felt like i belonged (even with my cynicism and bad attitude) . something happened there that i didn't expect. i didn't feel distracted or uncomfortable during worship, and i didn't feel like anything was a show. (please know that i am aware that my feelings towards these things are my own fault and i am dealing with them accordingly) there was something behind the hands raised, there was something sacred about communion, and no one pretending to have anything figured out. i liked that. i didn't get the feeling that the questions, worries, doubts or passions running around in my head would scare them. i think i found church that consisted of more than just the building and the obligatory attendance.
is it possible that my hostility towards churches here is because i am fighting like crazy to make sure i don't get stuck in houston? maybe it has nothing to do with the church itself, but with me. i am being sucked into houston and if i find community here i may never leave. maybe that's the bigger issue?
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brittany, i didn't know you were a blogger. im church hunting right now as well. its been so so long since ive had to visit and try to find a place to belong and people im to belong with... its hard. and it gives me a headache. and i don't like singing. and i keep wanting to stay in. and i get angry if i don't like it. and i don't like when people put me on their role. and it gives me a headache.
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